Dark Alleys

Blah... So the last two days at work I have been moving like a sloth. I had been making about 60 calls a day in the three weeks prior to this. The last two days? 15 total. Now I get calls and emails and do other things, but mostly I've come to work read about sports (and oddly enough a lot of economics), and left. You'd think these would have been two of the best days in the history of employment. Incorrect good sir. These days have sucked. They've sucked so much I put two blog posts up in one day (ok I've done this before). They've sucked mostly because I had been in a good flow on the phone, and I completely killed my momentum. Also I have to show some production this month as last month I did really well, and I've only booked one deal this month. Ok on to the funny. So I had an interesting thing happen to me last evening. I went out with a girl I've been talking with for a bit. She's super new york. Distressingly so. She regularly regals me with tails of her 600 dolce pumps. slap. I hate this girl. She is the antithesis of almost everything I like in women. She's not the least bit independent. Her parents pay for all her bills includiong 2K for rent! She is exclusively concerned with the superficial. I have meaningful conversations with strangers I meet on the train, but I can't get her to tell me anything valuable about herself. Why do I spend time with her? She's hot. She has a fantastic body with big boobs and a great ass. She's blond and tall (5'9) and has these amazing green/grey eyes that sort of glow. I've found that if you have wonderful eyes (and don't look bad elsewhere) I can listen to insipid prattle for sickeningly long periods. She may be the most attractive person who I've ever dated. So last nigth we got dinner, and I wanted to punch myself in the face the entire time. I figured if I had a concussion I wouldn't be bothered as much by the things she was saying. The dinner ends. We go back to her place and start hooking up. She goes down on me for about 2 minutes then suddenly stops. She looks up at me with those great eyes, and I'm thinking she's about to say something exciting like insert sexual fantasy here. I was mistaken. Instead she says "you know what I'm thinking about" I choke back "apparently not sucking cock" she starts talking I go soft. Ten minutes later I'm out the door. I just wish I wasn't so fucking pathetic. If I wasn't I'd avoid these situations in their nascence, and not have to deal with ridiculo9us situations like this one